need ... inspiration ...

[veronica_rich]

This is totally not an emo post. I'm just missing my - inspiration, mojo, work ethic, whatever you want to call it. I have no desire to do much anymore, and it's driving me batty. I spent years working hard - good grades in high school and college, awards when I could, worked hard on my career (70 hours a week or more for little pay) out of college, got all kinds of awards there, too. Heck, when I lost my job five years ago, I took up temping and all kinds of part-time work just to stay afloat financially. I've lived on freelancing and legal work for the past several years. But I've hit a wall; I just can't do it anymore. I can't summon up the energy or inspiration or anything.

At this point in my career, as hard as I've worked, I ought to be somewhere, not stalled at a place 12 years in with nothing to show for it except a fancy resume I can't really use anywhere. I can't afford grad school, can't really afford to move and look somewhere else for an actual career-type job, and I simply don't know what to do to keep my spirits up and my "train on the track" these days. I've become lazy and uninspired, and that really sucks.

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[chibikat-wtf.livejournal.com]

I'm awfully sorry you feel that way. ._. I sort of know what you mean - I'm stuck in this office job until the end of the summer, when I start school up again. I've had no time to rest, so I feel like I'm wasting whatever time I do have sitting in some office, doing work that no one really cares about. Believe me, I empathise.

I guess the only suggestion I could make is that you start saving more money than before to move/go back to school/whatever it is you feel you need to do. Yeah, it's an obvious answer, and I'm sorry I can't think of anything better, but... >_O