retiring the icon
Jul. 13th, 2009 09:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
veronica_richI really didn't feel like re-upping my paid account right now - in fact, I may not at all. That means I only have room for so many icons, and while I don't mind rotating for a while, I came across this one and thought ... I'm deleting this one permanently. But I'll wait a few days because obviously it needs to be seen to know why it matters.
ETA: Icon gone. The one with this now is not the one this post any longer refers to.
I spent a good chunk of my time in POTC fandom for the last three years being annoyed, rather than entertained - annoyed with how the story was written in the sequels, annoyed with fellow fans for a few reasons (mostly for what prompted me to make this icon, or what I felt prompted me), and yes, annoyed with myself. I suppose if I hadn't enjoyed my escapism from stress so much the first three years, I might not have felt invested in the fandom/characters enough to turn into a raving loon (and yes, ruin some people's enjoyment in the process).
I didn't start out that way, but I got there. The nearest thing I can liken it to, which I have also done - and you might've as well - is riding down a big hill on a bike and being unable to get my feet on the pedals or engage the handlebar brakes in time to keep from pitching over off said bike. The good news is, the bike does eventually stop ... the bad news is you either end up with a few scrapes or you break bones. Or your head. Plus, the bike is usually ruined. (What, analogy went too far? LOL)
When you're a little kid and you screw up, a parent or teacher makes you apologize. Usually, this solves most problems (kids are remarkably elastic). When you're an adult, it no longer works like that, and sometimes you can't repair things. The tragedy, of course, is that no kid really means it when they say "I'm sorry," but it still works - while it doesn't always for adults, who might actually mean it.
tl;dr - I am thankful for the friends I have kept through this fandom, even as I miss some of the ones I no longer have. There are times I wish I'd been less of an asshole - as well as instances I'm OK with the fact I was. Who's perfect?
/any comments screened
ETA: Icon gone. The one with this now is not the one this post any longer refers to.
I spent a good chunk of my time in POTC fandom for the last three years being annoyed, rather than entertained - annoyed with how the story was written in the sequels, annoyed with fellow fans for a few reasons (mostly for what prompted me to make this icon, or what I felt prompted me), and yes, annoyed with myself. I suppose if I hadn't enjoyed my escapism from stress so much the first three years, I might not have felt invested in the fandom/characters enough to turn into a raving loon (and yes, ruin some people's enjoyment in the process).
I didn't start out that way, but I got there. The nearest thing I can liken it to, which I have also done - and you might've as well - is riding down a big hill on a bike and being unable to get my feet on the pedals or engage the handlebar brakes in time to keep from pitching over off said bike. The good news is, the bike does eventually stop ... the bad news is you either end up with a few scrapes or you break bones. Or your head. Plus, the bike is usually ruined. (What, analogy went too far? LOL)
When you're a little kid and you screw up, a parent or teacher makes you apologize. Usually, this solves most problems (kids are remarkably elastic). When you're an adult, it no longer works like that, and sometimes you can't repair things. The tragedy, of course, is that no kid really means it when they say "I'm sorry," but it still works - while it doesn't always for adults, who might actually mean it.
tl;dr - I am thankful for the friends I have kept through this fandom, even as I miss some of the ones I no longer have. There are times I wish I'd been less of an asshole - as well as instances I'm OK with the fact I was. Who's perfect?
/any comments screened
