Maybe because of my illness, I've already reached the piss off phase. While I can't and won't do that to everyone, I won't be pushed over like I was in my 20's.

I'm nearly 46 and for the first time in my life started directing me. If it's not fulfilling I don't linger anymore. If I want something I pursue it. I don't look to my past to define who I am anymore, because that shy introverted girl doesn't exist anymore.


Everyone is different of course. I've just found freedom instead of a midlife question.