Shopping day

Sep. 20th, 2017 03:52 pm
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 Since yesterday was a bust, I needed some retail therapy. 

No not really. I just needed to buy shit. 

I had to stop at the vet clinic and pick up a refill of Murrlin's blood pressure meds. I learned that Maria, the receptionist I love, is moving out of state because her husband got a new job. Bummer. She's always such a cheery person, as evidenced when she said she's looking forward to the move, which is closer to St. Louis, the O'Fallon area. A lot of people would be dreading such a thing, but not Maria. Will miss her greatly. I hope they continue to have competent receptionists. It's a complicated field. 

I found a recipe for persimmon fudge online yesterday and needed to get marshmallow cream and condensed milk for it. At Aldi's I realized I didn't remember how much cream I needed so I had to get 2. And I hope I have vanilla because I forgot that too. I didn't get nuts, but I'd like to make it without the walnuts first time around to see if it's worth spending nearly $6 on the nuts. 

The other day I discovered one of my favorite pair of jeans is getting threadbare in the crotch. They ALL do eventually. Since I climb ladders and am fairly active at work I don't want to take the chance on ripping a hole in the nether region of my pants, so I went to Kohl's for a new pair, hoping to find the same style. 

I must have been fooling myself. These pants are less than 1 year old and do you think they have the exact same style still? No, of course not, you silly goose. Thus began the try-on-every-pair-in-my-size-to-find-ONE-that-fits-somewhat endeavor. 

First I had to do the try-to-find-one-in-my-size search. I wanted to try on a 4, but I need "short." Were there ANY 4's in "short?" Of course not. And the so-called medium must be meant for those with legs like giraffes. My whole foot would still be concealed in those.

I finally found 3 pairs in size 6 "short." In the dressing room I discovered one pair DID NOT EVEN ZIP IN THE FRONT. Nor in the back, nor anywhere. They were "slip-on" jeans. WTF??? That is a thing now? Who in size 6 has the body for that? If I bend over, I'm flashing crack, people! And no, they were not "jeggings," they were blue jeans, they had pockets, but there weren't even belt loops. I ripped those suckers off. Bad enough I forgot to put a belt on today and had to hike my zippered jeans up every time I got out of the car.

Of course the most expensive pair were the pair which fit the best. These ripped-in-the-thigh-look jeans were $48, on sale for $39.99. I don't understand how the same manufacturer can have different styles of jeans in the same size and they fit so differently. I am partial to Lee's because they fit really well, when they fit, so I tried on a pair of 6 "short" Levis (took me a bit to find those too) but they were like a size 8 on me. I'm sticking with Lee and yes, paying $40. I have to be comfortable in my pants. This is why my closet is full of jeans which I now only wear at home because between losing 10 pounds since last winter and body fat shifting to my gut, I have so many pair which gap in the waist or are too tight in the waist, but gap in the butt or the thigh now, plus skinny jeans are really in and I have always liked that style better, so anything bootcut looks like mom-jeans to me. I might be over 50, but I'm not a mom. I don't need big-in-the-butt nor highwaisted pants. I think there's only 1 lady on a TV show that wears those now anyway. Someone should tell Kohl's that. 

Did you know high-waisted is a style again????? Especially in shorts. Whoever decided that did not live through the '80s. 

I think it's safe to say that every woman of every size (because I guarantee you the men don't have this much trouble or styles to choose from, they'd never tolerate it) now has a bitch of a time finding pants that fit. There is no standard of numbered size any more. There might as well just be small, medium, large, XL, 2X, 3X, etc. There are so many different descriptions of style that are not really a style but a "fit." The jeans I bought (for $40, the most I've EVER paid for pants that weren't for a special occasion) are "part jean, part dream" (huh?), "skinny leg," "modern series," midrise fit skinny," "close in the seat and thigh." Those are ALL terms used on the tags and inside the waist band to describe these pants!! 

When all I really wanted were jeans-that-fit....

I found some socks to get me my $10 Kohl's cash, but what the heck I'm going to spend it on next week I have no idea because I didn't like any of the plaid flannel shirt patterns they had, and the colors I did like were only in the plus sizes (nice selection for the plus sized ladies, just FYI) which was the only other thing I wanted while I was there. All the other tops they had were so thin. I believe in climate change, but it's not going to be that warm this winter. 

Last but not least, did you know that Lowe's doesn't carry colored duct tape? Even Wal-Mart carries colored duct tape, but they were out of the color I wanted. 

All-in-all it was a good trip. I managed to make it through Kohl's AND TJ Maxx's checkouts without buying some chocolate or chips or whatever else they cram the register areas full of now. I did get me a $3 bottle of pinot grigio at Aldi's though ;)


No progress today

Sep. 19th, 2017 06:07 pm
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 Not even sure what happened today. I felt like I needed a nap from the moment I got up, so I didn't do anything productive all morning. That I'll blame on low iron from my heavy period that started Sunday, something else no one tells you about peri-menopause. Then this afternoon I began having excruciating upper stomach cramps, like legit muscle cramps but up under my ribs. I looked up diaphragm cramps and got nowhere and various other versions of same. I took some Gas-X type stuff, thinking it was gas cramps, but they would not go away. I couldn't stand up straight, it was like a charlie horse in my gut! Hurt like hell, but it didn't feel like anything I needed to get myself to a hospital for, no shortness of breath, just these god-awful cramps like some muscle trying to twist itself. Lasted over an hour. I drank some water because if it's gall bladder related, that's supposed to help. I searched some more - damn, people ask the craziest shit on those medical answer sites - and came across stomach cramps being caused by certain foods and one of them listed was popcorn. I had eaten at least 2 cups, if not 3, of white cheddar popcorn earlier in the afternoon, as I didn't have lunch and by 2PM was hungry. Who knew? 

So no more of that! I laid down and after a good belch (which I'd been doing off and on without relief) finally felt better, so I don't really know what the hell, but at least I'm not sore. It hurt so much like a muscle cramp I was afraid I was going to feel like I'd done 50 sit-ups when it was over. 

How was your day? LOL



Sep. 19th, 2017 09:07 am
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 I steam cleaned my living room carpet yesterday with my new steam cleaner. The old one (at least 10 yrs) broke earlier this year so I've put off getting a new one (and carpet cleaning) all summer. One room down, 3 to go, if I do them all, but the cat room just needs a good vacuuming unless I find puke spots under the papasan chair. 

This may not seem like a big deal to others, but it is to me. I put off things like nobody's business. I usually do my carpet steam clean once in the spring and once in the fall. So yeah, a house with 3 cats and I haven't steam cleaned my carpet since last fall. I had been spot cleaning the messes, but then the cleaner broke, so it's just dry them up with a paper towel. Those of you with pets know what I mean. 

I also cleaned my kitchen counters yesterday because there was a spier by the sink and in order to kill it, I had to take everything off, so I was like, what the hell? That's what it takes for me to clean something. I need the help of spiders. At least they're good for something.

monthly obligations

Sep. 17th, 2017 06:02 pm
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I should feel like I just went on a spending spree when I pay my credit card bills. 

I just had to pay part of the one I always pay off each month out of my savings. 

It was either that or transfer the balance to another card offering interest free for 18 months with a 2% fee.

Yesterday I spent $170 on a new steam cleaner. 

I still need a new door this fall to replace the one the raccoons tore up trying to get to my bird seed, which has been sitting inside my house all summer drawing pantry moths. So I had to order some moth traps from Amazon.

Spending money never fucking ends. 

Yuletide noms!

Sep. 14th, 2017 06:24 pm
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They close tomorrow so hurry and get your nominations in!

Mine are:

Witcher: Geralt, Emhyr, Ciri, Dandelion (duh)

Dragonriders of Pern: Menolly, Robinton (I totally want Menolly/Robinton NOT SORRY)

Dune (the book): Paul, Jessica, Stilgar, Feyd -- I don't know exactly what I want here, I think I want some outsider POV on Paul maybe?

My runners-up were:

Rome: Pullo, Vorenus, maybe Octavian -- man, I would love a story that undid what the show did to Octavian in S2 so much

Gladiator: Maximus, Commodus

Brimstone: Ezekiel, The Devil

Dungeons and Dragons Cartoon: Eric, Hank, Sheila, Venger

Battle of the Planets: Mark, Jason

and my perennial hope-springs-eternal Dracula: the Series: Lucard (hope doesn't really spring very far lol)

I am totally not mentioning these here in hopes that someone has a spare nom they wouldn't mind using on one of these. ;)


Sep. 14th, 2017 12:19 pm
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As those of us fraught with anxiety most days tend to do, I have recently been plagued by intrusive thoughts regarding situations involving the behavior of others. 

Then I read a version of this:

The particular quote was a little more involved with a broader explanation, so it resonated more with me because the people taking up head or thought space are not always toxic yet sometimes their behavior is vexing, to say the least, and I dwell on how to deal with them. Those thoughts take up an awful lot of headspace for me.

Frankly it makes me miserable.

So when I saw the quote it immediately brought to mind the neon sign "NO VACANCY." 

For me it means "There is No Vacancy here. Aggravating thoughts - go away." I used it as a mantra last weekend, reminding myself that there is no vacancy in my head for this situation and by Monday, I felt much better not only about the situation that was plaguing me, but pretty much about everything. Preventing myself from dwelling on intrusive thoughts opened my mind to other more pleasant things and allowed me to fucking breathe.

The really crazy thing is that yesterday I had to deal with the person involved in the situation and I found myself able to make the day a pleasant experience. Perhaps whatever had been bothering them or their own anxiety had dissipated enough that they no longer felt animosity toward me also so nothing was said or done to aggravate the rift that had developed. I also realistically considered that I only needed to spend 4 hours with them, I can surely be civil during that small amount of time, something I rarely considered while I otherwise spent probably countless hours trying to process how I would deal with them when I again had no choice but to do so. 

It's difficult to remember whole quotes, so if the quote above resonates, this condensed idea might be helpful - by all means try it. 

I find the whole idea of "Think positive thoughts and you will be positive," a crock of bullshit. Anxiety just makes me respond with, "Why can't I think more positive?!" I can't automatically make my intrusive thoughts more positive, I need a signpost that plants itself and over-writes the thoughts as a whole. "No Vacancy" did that for me. It helped me dilute the anxiety that the situation had caused. Less anxiety helped me be more positive. 

Echoing in my head

Sep. 11th, 2017 10:14 am
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While I was in college,Read more... )

and while I'm at it

Sep. 10th, 2017 09:12 am
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I've noted that you can buy low cost cat litter with free shipping from Amazon. (If you wait for sales).
The same can't be said for pine bark mulch.

delayed update

Sep. 10th, 2017 08:09 am
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Odd things.

1. I went to 101 night as a DM. Met a few interesting people, one of whom I met because her name was based on an Edgar Rice Burroughs novel. She and her husband were impressed I got the reference.
I talked a few people into trying the vacuum bed. of the three people who tried it, one really liked it, one kind of liked it but was still processing the sensation and one really didn't like that it was hard for her to breathe (or harder perhaps) and didn't care for the experience.
We had our first emergency in a while. Someone who knew they had an issue with needle and decided to try the knife play demo (Which had some very nice knives btw) and started to faint. I think half a dozen people responded. A chair was produced and first some went towels and then some Ice on the neck seemed to a get through the worst of it. They recovered and went forth to try less triggery things.
Read more... )


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